I’m living in a house of cards. I made a decision earlier this year that degraded my bare bones shelter to a house of cards. I have been stressed and nervous about any wind that could come along to blow away my fragile house of cards. It seems like ever since I made that decision, I have been plagued with drafts and breezes reminding me that I have no insurance for my house of cards.
Two times recently, two different people unknowingly gifted me with a small amount of glue to steady the bottom layer of cards. I’m thankful, but I am ashamed. I put myself in a situation where I had to rely on someone else to supply the glue.
It’s time that I grow up a little and start securing the cards of my house with my own glue. If I do it right, I could even build a house of sticks or even bricks. Mostly, I need to make sure I have a house where I can take refuge when the winds come. A place where I can stay and know that if a blizzard or tornado came, I might suffer some damage, I might need some repairs, but that I won’t be taken down in the ruins.
Thus, 2012 becomes the year when I change and grow up. 2012 will be the year when I learn from mistakes that could have been disastrous and take comfort in actions that provide security. 2012 is the year I sacrifice my irresponsible, scary youth for a strong, sustainable shelter.